Confused Feelings

Hey peeps! Here is a diary of a young lady who needs advise from readers.

 Read her story below and kindly leave your comments:

I wonder how I am going to get through this:

I haven’t seen my husband in months now, due to work and other stuffs. Feelings flow and I definitely have blood running through my veins, I miss him also and I go crazy anytime I can’t see him or feel him.

Though I still ask myself why this is happening to me right now, but whatever the case maybe I am seriously in Love with another man and I think I can proudly say it.

Anyways on this loyal day, I was so on my own having a lil party when my very good friend came by and said we are going to have dinner with an “old friend” much later in d day so I got curious to know who the person is but she just kept quiet and let me find out myself.

So at about 6pm same day “The anonymous” arrived, Omg I was as shocked as anything, couldn’t help but scream for a while. Oh no wonder my friend didn’t want to mention who he was, wow one of her Ex that is eventually married with a kid, working at a very reputable organization in Lagos and he’s doing so well for himself. Jheeze honestly I was happy to see him and at d same time I was surprise that they were still seeing. Ok

So we went to have our so called “Dinner” at a very lovely restaurant in Lagos. We got talking about families, work and stuffs, and surprisingly there are some things he couldn’t just 4get about me as in this guy has a very good memory, these are the things I can’t even think of remembering myself. Anyways we all had a good laugh and later went back to our houses.

So a week after my friend called that we should all go clubbing. yay I was happy as usual, cos I love hanging out and having fun. Here comes Friday, he took us to this awkward bar we have never been to on the island, nice sight, funny people everywhere, and we had a nice time before we went to a proper dance club on same island. Yaaaay again how I Love my “alcohol. We started drinking, dancing, getting tipsy and having fun till we got tired of dancing. So we went to his house, His wife and kid are out of the country at the moment so we had the whole house to ourselves but by the time we got to his house, we were so tired and just want to crash. He showed us where we going to sleep while he slept in his living room. My friend and I gisted b4 she eventually slept off and I got really thirsty so I went downstairs to get water, and on my way back upstairs I noticed him lying down on the couch which I thought he would have been far asleep so by the time I got beside him I decided to disturb by tapping his ear with the water I held with me and surprisingly he wasn’t asleep yet and within a twinkle of an eye we started *Kissing, smooching and * omg we completely lost it that minute. And the next day the feeling became very strange and different, couldn’t even look each other in the eyes till he dropped us off but along the line, he got my contact in the car and we started chatting from that day.

Each day, minutes, second we keep talking and chatting, Omg I am getting to like this guy already and I’m sure he’s feeling the same way too, cos we always want to talk with each other, we make use of any opportunity we have to see each other, and the sex is always great, we always want more and more and more, we don’t even use protection because at this point I don’t mind getting pregnant for him. It is becoming something else. “Could this be happening? I keep asking myself because my husband doesn’t even come first in my thought anymore, this guy says he loves me often and I say it in return also. Could this be love for real? because I dint even feel this way with my husband when we started. But this guy is sweeping me off my feet, I am getting obsessed with him, I am getting addicted to him, if I don’t talk to him within 30min I will want to freak out or cry.

Now my question is, how do I cope with these feelings when my husband gets back or when his wife gets back?